Ireland Baldwinis recalling a time when she “hit a total breaking point.”
In a PEOPLE-exclusive preview from this week’s episode ofRed Table Talk, the 26-year-old model and daughter ofKim BasingerandAlec Baldwinreveals she was “self-medicating with Xanax” and “drinking” at one point in her life, noting, “I have a lot of alcoholism and drug addiction in my family.”
Ireland tellsRTTco-hostWillow Smiththat she once “had a night where I went way too far with drinking and taking pills, ‘cause I couldn’t even go to bed at night” without it.
“I had isolated all of my real friends, all of my family. I had no control in anything in my life,” she adds. “I tortured myself with my eating disorders.”
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Ireland — who appears in the episode alongside mom Basinger, 68, in their first-ever joint interview — also says she “didn’t talk to [her] parents for, like, a year” as a result.
“I saw them here and there,” she explains of Alec, 64, and Basinger, “but I was so ashamed of what I had become and how I was living.”
“I just became this different person. I was emaciated in every way; I was lifeless,” Ireland says.
Ireland’s appearance onRed Table Talkcomes seven years after she checked herself intoSOBA Recovery Center— a drug-and-alcohol-treatment facility in Malibu, California, that specializes in psychological disorders and addiction — for “emotional trauma.”
“This is not drug-related; she voluntarily checked herself in,” asource told PEOPLE at the time. “She’s just been in some tough situations lately, and it’s gotten a bit stressful and overwhelming, so she’s just being proactive. She’s in there to get the tools she needs to move forward in a positive direction.”
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Ireland has also been open about herstruggles with eating disorders, celebrating six years ofbeing “free of anorexia and bulimia"in August 2020.
Earlier this month, the model shared apost on Instagramabout how she has dealt with her own body insecurities after she “reached a boiling point.”
“I have my bad days, of course. But overall, I f—ing LOVE food … like romantically. I love my body. I love the way it moves. I love how I feel in it,” Ireland went on, also revealing, “I am in themost freeing mental headspace I have ever beenin about mybody image.”
“Oh, and … ‘fat’ is beautiful, not an insult. ‘Pigs’ are adorable. And so smart. SO jokes on you,” she added.
Ireland Baldwin and Kim Basinger’s episode ofRed Table Talkairs Wednesday at 12 p.m. ET on Facebook Watch.
If you or someone you know is struggling with substance abuse, please contact the SAMHSA helpline at 1-800-662-HELP.
source: people.com
