Dorit Kemsleylet viewers into her healing process onThe Real Housewives of Beverly Hills.
In October, male intruders robbed Dorit at gunpoint at her California home as her children, sonJagger, 8, and daughterPhoenix, 6, were asleep in the other room. Her husband,Paul “PK” Kemsley, was in London at the time of the incident, though he returned home soon after. Kemsley has since confirmed her kids still have no knowledge of the break in.
Because of that, the specialist asked the reality star to think of the moment in which she was lying on the ground with a gun to her head along with the words: “I’m not safe.”
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This approach sparked deep emotion within Dorit as she recalled thinking about her own children’s safety during that moment. “I went from, ‘I’m not safe,’ to thinking about my kids,” she said, which led the therapist to instruct her to “go with” that feeling.
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Dorit eventually burst into tears at the thought of her Jagger and Phoenix being at the risk of death.
“Oh, God forbid anything ever happens to them,” she said. “I can’t shake this feeling.”
Dorit Kemsley with husband Paul and her kids.Paul Kemsley/Instagram
Asked specifically what feelings she was currently struggling with, Dorit said: “So scared, so worried, so afraid, so sad.”
“When I close my eyes, I can see the headline: ‘Mother Found Dead in Her Bedroom and the Kids Were Shot, Found Dead in Their Bed,'” she added through tears in a confessional. “Oh, my God. Oh, my God. That thought is going to haunt me for the rest of my life.”
While speaking to her therapist again, Dorit acknowledged that it’ll take time to allow her to fully heal from the incident.
“It’s just right now, it feels like … I feel very far from where I need to be,” she said. “I feel like I have a lot of work to do.”
The Real Housewives of Beverly Hillsairs Wednesdays at 8 p.m. ET on Bravo.
source: people.com
